My time spent back home in Omaha was good. I saw a lot of friends, had some cocktails, ate some seriously yummy yet bad for you food & didn't do a bit of exercise the entire time. I did however realize that I HATE the weather there. I think I had a headache 95% of my time spent awake while there, from said weather. But I do miss my friends and love going back to see them.
Friday night after landing I got my car and drove over to Kelly's house to hang out with her and her daughter Tierney. After receiving some disappointing news about my plans for Saturday night we proceeded to get drunk on wine and smoke a few cigarettes. I haven't smoked in over 2 years. It was disgusting but i felt it was necessary given my state of funk. Saturday morning came waaaaaay to early due in part to a 4 year old resident and my friends bedroom has got to be the BRIGHTEST FREAKIN ROOM I have ever woken up in. Happy Birthday to me. Breakfast was delish at the ole Village Inn - I did well and had 2 eggs over easy, 2 pieces of bacon some wheat toast and OJ..... & then I was off to treat myself to a massage. OMG I so needed that. I really should schedule those more often. Fast forward to that afternoon spent swimming with my friend and his son and then watching the Husker game.
Birthday dinner Saturday night with Sheri, Kelly & Traci was fun. Tapas and Sangria!!!! Paella is so tasty I need to figure out how to make this myself. ( i think i put myself into a carb coma because i could not drink anymore that night & found myself with a raging headache ) (( can you get a headache from eating carbs when you haven't been eating them - something to research i think ))
Sunday was spent trying to find a swimming pool for me to get some sun and cool off. I ended up going out to the water park at the lake by myself and enjoyed a little downtime. Labor Day party at Alex & Keri's was fun - good to see everyone and hang. I am reminded at these functions how far I have come and how good I am doing. The thing about the midwest is that you are not surrounded by a lot of healthy options or beautiful mountains to hike or trails to run. It would be easy for me to fall back into the bad eating habits and laziness that comes with hot humid summers and bitter freezing winters. Everyone I see - not just people I know - but random people at places we go are overweight and unhealthy looking. The only thing people seem to do for entertainment are go to the bar and drink. I just can't do that anymore. Yes I live in one of the fittest cities in America per Forbes article. So it does help with motivation to see everyone around you active, fit and healthy.
I did breakdown Saturday afternoon and Sunday afternoon and had Runza - It was soooo good.
Flew home Monday afternoon after having lunch with Theresa and her son for her 40th birthday. And met the family for my belated birthday dinner at Benihana . AWESOME!
TUESDAY MORNING WEIGH IN.....
I was not looking forward to this at all. The scale Friday morning read 170 & the scale that morning read 175.6 AAAAGGGGHHHH. How the hell can I put on over 5 pounds in less than 4 days?
I am so disappointed in myself and this is usually where I quit - I get frustrated with the setback and just say Fuck it and continue eating like crap..... Then next thing you know I am back to wearing a size 16 and miserable. Oh the joys of my weight cycle / depression cycle. Not this time I am telling myself, and you. I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO FUCK THIS UP! I am so close to goal that I can taste it yet it seems so far away from me. 15 pounds now turns into 20 pounds needed to hit goal. Insert me in the fetal position crying to myself in the corner. OK now that Im done with the pity party I can plan my goals for this week.
It is Thursday - I will eat on track from this point forward. I will do at least 30 minutes of exercise each day. I will plan a hike for this wknd with whomever will go with me or just go by myself. I will remind myself daily that I am the only one who can lose the weight for me, No one else can do it for me So I shouldn't rely on anyone else to get me out of the house and doing something. I need to go to the grocery store tonight also - I am so out of food it is not even funny.
Im hoping that with planning and that being aware of my moods and not letting them control my life that I can get back on track and drop some more weight.
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