Why even after losing 30 lbs am I still not happy with how far I've come? All I keep hearing in my head is " That's great BUT you still have 15-20 more to go and you know how hard that is going to be. Let alone if you get to goal - How are you going to keep it off and not F*** up like you always do? "
Everytime I had a setback in the past I just end up saying F*** it and go on some carb & fat overload bing and next thing you know Im back wearing my fat jeans.
What I am trying to figure out now is why can't I focus on the positive things that I have done so far? Why am I unable to take a compliment without kicking it back in the face of whomever said it? "Oh thanks, yes i have lost some weight, but i have 15 or more so to go so I can't be happy until that happens. " D always tells me the main reason he never compliments me or says anything positive about how I look is because I negate his comments the second he says anything so it's just easier to not say anything.
In my head I am still heavy and In my head I am not worthy of compliments and In my head Im not sure if or when I will be happy with myself.
Can someone please tell me how I can start to feel better about myself?
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