To say that the workout Monday night ( Cardio Power & Resistance ) was tough after a double dose on Sunday - would be a lie! it was brutal. My legs felt like cement and they continued to feel that way thru my workout last night - Pure Cardio.
I am pleased to report that aside from my 2 day back issue break - I have completed 9 days of Insanity and only have 54 more days to go!!!
I have noticed I am able to do more of the workouts without risk of vomiting. I am stopping less and jumping a bit higher. I am still a wet hot mess when I get finished but I feel great I hate to say it !!! I am still only able to girlie push-ups and cannot do the moving push-ups at all yet. Im hoping by next week I can move into "regular" push-ups without falling into the floor.
Tonight is Plyometrics Cardio Circuit which I have done 2x so far so Im not too scared. This Saturday might be a tough one since it is Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs. I have not had the pleasure of that workout yet. One day at a time though. :)
Oh.... I did buy a new scale last night. Weight Watchers ........ ( i will put in the model later ) for $39 at Bed Bath & Beyond - used a 20% off coupon!!! And I am sad to say my other scale was not broke I really am holding fast at somewhere between 174-175. My goal for the next 2 weeks though is to not get on the scale until Saturday morning only !! None of this everyday, make myself miserable weighing in. At least until I am done with Insanity and see what happens. And really try and stick to a healthy eating plan with more calories due to the extreme exercising I am doing now.
Wish me Luck!
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Monday, September 24, 2012
Days 5-7
DAY 5 - PURE CARDIO
My back was way too sore to do anything on Friday. I had to skip workout so I wouldn't injure myself further.
DAY 6 - PLYOMETRICS CARDIO CIRCUIT -
Saturday started out with the intention of doing Fridays workout in the morning and then Saturdays workout that evening. That didn't happen. My back was a little tight still so I decided to take another day off. :(
DAY 7 - REST DAY
Sunday am was makeup session for day 5. Workout was difficult and I sure noticed what taking 2 days off does to my breathing and lungs. I really noticed how it was difficult to breathe similar to Day 1. Plan is to do a double workout today and catch up on Day 6 in the evening.
Sunday pm we completed day 6 workout. OMG I would not recommend trying to do 2 in one day during your first week. I was exhausted to say the least. But finished. And then crashed.
Back on schedule this week! WOO HOO! Finished week 1!
Weight is the same - I did get a little tease Saturday morning though when my scale read 170! But alas this morning was back at 175. Ughhh.
My back was way too sore to do anything on Friday. I had to skip workout so I wouldn't injure myself further.
DAY 6 - PLYOMETRICS CARDIO CIRCUIT -
Saturday started out with the intention of doing Fridays workout in the morning and then Saturdays workout that evening. That didn't happen. My back was a little tight still so I decided to take another day off. :(
DAY 7 - REST DAY
Sunday am was makeup session for day 5. Workout was difficult and I sure noticed what taking 2 days off does to my breathing and lungs. I really noticed how it was difficult to breathe similar to Day 1. Plan is to do a double workout today and catch up on Day 6 in the evening.
Sunday pm we completed day 6 workout. OMG I would not recommend trying to do 2 in one day during your first week. I was exhausted to say the least. But finished. And then crashed.
Back on schedule this week! WOO HOO! Finished week 1!
Weight is the same - I did get a little tease Saturday morning though when my scale read 170! But alas this morning was back at 175. Ughhh.
Friday, September 21, 2012
Day 4 - Insanity Cardio Recovery
Last night was not horrible. :) Although the title states recovery, it just means you are not jumping all over the place. You are still getting a good sweaty workout. Alot of yoga poses, stretches, squats, lunges.... And I was able somehow to tweak my back a little. I was in an extreme amount of pain all of last night but am feeling a bit better today. I am planning on trying to complete day 5 - Pure Cardio - which Im sure means Pure Hell actually.
Weight has still not budged. I know I said I wouldnt weigh myself every morning but it is just so hard to walk by the scale and not step on it. Maybe I should put it down in the garage for a week or so. I will be less likely to be naked in my garage first thing in the morning than I am with it right by the shower.
Laters.
Oh, Im thinking about posting this onto my facebook page. It actually makes me a bit quesy just thinking about it. Maybe my first step will be to just add it to myfitnesspal that I am using to track my food intake. Baby steps.
link to Myfitnesspal
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/invitations/join/11277194&code=e5rwHdTErlm0Ul9njPLnmBGn&cp=invite
my username is smandel7070
Weight has still not budged. I know I said I wouldnt weigh myself every morning but it is just so hard to walk by the scale and not step on it. Maybe I should put it down in the garage for a week or so. I will be less likely to be naked in my garage first thing in the morning than I am with it right by the shower.
Laters.
Oh, Im thinking about posting this onto my facebook page. It actually makes me a bit quesy just thinking about it. Maybe my first step will be to just add it to myfitnesspal that I am using to track my food intake. Baby steps.
link to Myfitnesspal
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/invitations/join/11277194&code=e5rwHdTErlm0Ul9njPLnmBGn&cp=invite
my username is smandel7070
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Day 3 of Insanity
Last night was Cardio Power & Resistance. I had a slight headache and was a bit grumpy when starting the DVD. I made it thru with some slight modifications and short rest breaks. The DVD we have was borrowed so with about 10 minutes left we had some technical difficulties with the disc. So we were forced to stop for the day and did our cool down walking around the cul-de-sacs for a bit.
Im not as sore today as I have been the past few days. Im not sure if it is because we cut out 10 minutes early - knowing too that the last 5-7 minutes are usually stretching - OR... my body might be getting over that hump of severe muscle fatigue??? Tonight is Cardio Recovery - Not sure what that is but it sounds like maybe an easier workout? I HIGHLY DOUBT IT. I am in a better mood and frame of mind than I was yesterday so Im hoping that will follow me throughout the day and I am able to get thru the workout with a smile tonight.
I was able to go grocery shopping last night so now there is no excuse for eating badly. All the proper foods were purchased and just need to do a little prep work to get prepared for the next few days. Luckily it is Thursday and only one more day of bringing lunch to work and trying not to starve during the day. The whole eating 5 meals a day is a difficulty I have always been dealing with. I just don't eat often enough and then try to make up for it once I get home by over indulging.
One step at a time I guess.
Im still up on weight and REALLY need to stop stepping on the scale every morning, at least for the next week or so.
Laters.
Im not as sore today as I have been the past few days. Im not sure if it is because we cut out 10 minutes early - knowing too that the last 5-7 minutes are usually stretching - OR... my body might be getting over that hump of severe muscle fatigue??? Tonight is Cardio Recovery - Not sure what that is but it sounds like maybe an easier workout? I HIGHLY DOUBT IT. I am in a better mood and frame of mind than I was yesterday so Im hoping that will follow me throughout the day and I am able to get thru the workout with a smile tonight.
I was able to go grocery shopping last night so now there is no excuse for eating badly. All the proper foods were purchased and just need to do a little prep work to get prepared for the next few days. Luckily it is Thursday and only one more day of bringing lunch to work and trying not to starve during the day. The whole eating 5 meals a day is a difficulty I have always been dealing with. I just don't eat often enough and then try to make up for it once I get home by over indulging.
One step at a time I guess.
Im still up on weight and REALLY need to stop stepping on the scale every morning, at least for the next week or so.
Laters.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
On a positive note....
I finally did measurements again and have my inches lost since I started the HCG in late June.
Start date 6/26/2012
Re-measure date 9/18/2012
Area Inches lost
Neck 0
R Arm - 1.5
L Arm - 2.25
Upper Chest - 1
Chest - 3.5
Midriff - 2
Waist - 3.5
Hips - 3
R Thigh 0
R Knee - 1.5
R Calf - .5
L Thigh - 1.5
L Knee - 2.5
L Calf - .5
Upper Roll - 7.5 this is the lovely area just above your belly button, ie muffin top
Lower Roll - 4 this is the other lovely area just below your belly button
Total inches lost 34.75 !!!!!!
Yee Frickin Haw !
Start date 6/26/2012
Re-measure date 9/18/2012
Area Inches lost
Neck 0
R Arm - 1.5
L Arm - 2.25
Upper Chest - 1
Chest - 3.5
Midriff - 2
Waist - 3.5
Hips - 3
R Thigh 0
R Knee - 1.5
R Calf - .5
L Thigh - 1.5
L Knee - 2.5
L Calf - .5
Upper Roll - 7.5 this is the lovely area just above your belly button, ie muffin top
Lower Roll - 4 this is the other lovely area just below your belly button
Total inches lost 34.75 !!!!!!
Yee Frickin Haw !
Recap - Day 2 of INSANITY - or... I wish I was dead.
Im almost too tired and sore this morning to type. I make the most horrific sounds when Im trying to stand up or walk down the stairs. Don't even get me started about going to the bathroom. I think I scared the cat this morning when I sat down ( fell down ) onto the toilet. Seriously! This is the most sore I have been in I don't even know how long. And.... Im working out again every night for the next 4 nights / 60 days in total with like 7 rest days.
The workout last night was hard. Plyometric Cardio Circuit. We didn't even really do the last set of exercises it was alot of pushups, pushups with bringing your knees in and then kicking back out, plank with running or mountain climbers as I know them, and other forms of torture I have apparently forgotten already. And.... when I stepped on the scale this morning i was up like 3 pounds - so I was 176 this morning! WTH?
Im supposed to be increasing my food to around 1800-1900 calories a day & eating 5 meals throughout the day. I haven't been able to go grocery shopping yet so I am starving right now, am on my 2nd cup of coffee & only have an apple here with me at work. Im going to need to head to the store at lunch to get something to eat for sure today. Then again tonight to get the items needed for pre-planned meals the rest of the time until next payday.
Im going to now go very slowly into a corner and cry.
The workout last night was hard. Plyometric Cardio Circuit. We didn't even really do the last set of exercises it was alot of pushups, pushups with bringing your knees in and then kicking back out, plank with running or mountain climbers as I know them, and other forms of torture I have apparently forgotten already. And.... when I stepped on the scale this morning i was up like 3 pounds - so I was 176 this morning! WTH?
Im supposed to be increasing my food to around 1800-1900 calories a day & eating 5 meals throughout the day. I haven't been able to go grocery shopping yet so I am starving right now, am on my 2nd cup of coffee & only have an apple here with me at work. Im going to need to head to the store at lunch to get something to eat for sure today. Then again tonight to get the items needed for pre-planned meals the rest of the time until next payday.
Im going to now go very slowly into a corner and cry.
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
FML - DAY 1 OF INSANITY..... Fitness Test
Have I mentioned before that when I decide to do something, like exercise, I can't just work into it slowly and do something moderate working up to a normal exercise routine. Nope. I decide to start Insanity Workout!
WEIGHT is currently 175-172 depending on the morning and the previous evenings bad food choices.
If you are not familiar with the Insanity program - it is the 60 day version of P90X but with more cardio and jumping around. It is meant for people who are already in shape ( does round count? ) to push them into a ripped, stronger, hard body. Not meant for a somewhat active ( if you consider an occasional jog or walk active ) individuals who still have a few extra pounds they are carrying around.
DAY 1 - FIT TEST. Monday September, 17, 2012
If the fit test is any indication of how the rest of the program will be, I am in for a world of hurt.
We began with a warm up of jumping jacks, heisman moves, knee lift things. This had me winded. Then we begin the Fit test - this is to be completed every two weeks so you can judge where you started and how far you have improved. Each move is completed as many times as you can in a 60 second increment with a minute rest time in between each move.
This is how I faired:
Morning, Tuesday September 18th.
OMG I am so sore. My legs - my abs - my chest/shoulders - everything that could possibly hurt does. And I am supposed to do my first "real" workout tonight. Im very scared to say the least.
Im wondering if it would be ok if I maybe take this first week of the program and spread it out over two weeks just so my body doesn't break or go into shock from being over worked? I could always go for a little run or bike ride tonight instead. Is that cheating? Am I wussing out already after barely ONE workout?
Ok, so after further discussion with D - We are doing this in its entirety. No quitting after only doing the Fit Test! I have read some blogs and other online posts about the program. And, what everyone keeps saying is just do as much as you can and rest as often as you need to. Sounds simple right? So when I get home from work tonight we do the "REAL Day 1 workout"
Wish me luck! I hope to be able to type tomorrow so I can update you on my progress. :)
WEIGHT is currently 175-172 depending on the morning and the previous evenings bad food choices.
If you are not familiar with the Insanity program - it is the 60 day version of P90X but with more cardio and jumping around. It is meant for people who are already in shape ( does round count? ) to push them into a ripped, stronger, hard body. Not meant for a somewhat active ( if you consider an occasional jog or walk active ) individuals who still have a few extra pounds they are carrying around.
DAY 1 - FIT TEST. Monday September, 17, 2012
If the fit test is any indication of how the rest of the program will be, I am in for a world of hurt.
We began with a warm up of jumping jacks, heisman moves, knee lift things. This had me winded. Then we begin the Fit test - this is to be completed every two weeks so you can judge where you started and how far you have improved. Each move is completed as many times as you can in a 60 second increment with a minute rest time in between each move.
This is how I faired:
Switch kicks 32
Power jacks 28
Power knees 45
Power jumps 12
Globe jumps 6
Suicide jumps 7
Push up jacks 5 girl p/u
Low plank oblique 28
Morning, Tuesday September 18th.
OMG I am so sore. My legs - my abs - my chest/shoulders - everything that could possibly hurt does. And I am supposed to do my first "real" workout tonight. Im very scared to say the least.
Im wondering if it would be ok if I maybe take this first week of the program and spread it out over two weeks just so my body doesn't break or go into shock from being over worked? I could always go for a little run or bike ride tonight instead. Is that cheating? Am I wussing out already after barely ONE workout?
Ok, so after further discussion with D - We are doing this in its entirety. No quitting after only doing the Fit Test! I have read some blogs and other online posts about the program. And, what everyone keeps saying is just do as much as you can and rest as often as you need to. Sounds simple right? So when I get home from work tonight we do the "REAL Day 1 workout"
Wish me luck! I hope to be able to type tomorrow so I can update you on my progress. :)
Friday, September 7, 2012
Getting back on the horse......
172 this morning !!! I can put the weight back on in like 2.2 seconds but it takes me what feels like 3 weeks to lose it again.
Why even after losing 30 lbs am I still not happy with how far I've come? All I keep hearing in my head is " That's great BUT you still have 15-20 more to go and you know how hard that is going to be. Let alone if you get to goal - How are you going to keep it off and not F*** up like you always do? "
Everytime I had a setback in the past I just end up saying F*** it and go on some carb & fat overload bing and next thing you know Im back wearing my fat jeans.
What I am trying to figure out now is why can't I focus on the positive things that I have done so far? Why am I unable to take a compliment without kicking it back in the face of whomever said it? "Oh thanks, yes i have lost some weight, but i have 15 or more so to go so I can't be happy until that happens. " D always tells me the main reason he never compliments me or says anything positive about how I look is because I negate his comments the second he says anything so it's just easier to not say anything.
In my head I am still heavy and In my head I am not worthy of compliments and In my head Im not sure if or when I will be happy with myself.
Can someone please tell me how I can start to feel better about myself?
Why even after losing 30 lbs am I still not happy with how far I've come? All I keep hearing in my head is " That's great BUT you still have 15-20 more to go and you know how hard that is going to be. Let alone if you get to goal - How are you going to keep it off and not F*** up like you always do? "
Everytime I had a setback in the past I just end up saying F*** it and go on some carb & fat overload bing and next thing you know Im back wearing my fat jeans.
What I am trying to figure out now is why can't I focus on the positive things that I have done so far? Why am I unable to take a compliment without kicking it back in the face of whomever said it? "Oh thanks, yes i have lost some weight, but i have 15 or more so to go so I can't be happy until that happens. " D always tells me the main reason he never compliments me or says anything positive about how I look is because I negate his comments the second he says anything so it's just easier to not say anything.
In my head I am still heavy and In my head I am not worthy of compliments and In my head Im not sure if or when I will be happy with myself.
Can someone please tell me how I can start to feel better about myself?
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Post Birthday update
My time spent back home in Omaha was good. I saw a lot of friends, had some cocktails, ate some seriously yummy yet bad for you food & didn't do a bit of exercise the entire time. I did however realize that I HATE the weather there. I think I had a headache 95% of my time spent awake while there, from said weather. But I do miss my friends and love going back to see them.
Friday night after landing I got my car and drove over to Kelly's house to hang out with her and her daughter Tierney. After receiving some disappointing news about my plans for Saturday night we proceeded to get drunk on wine and smoke a few cigarettes. I haven't smoked in over 2 years. It was disgusting but i felt it was necessary given my state of funk. Saturday morning came waaaaaay to early due in part to a 4 year old resident and my friends bedroom has got to be the BRIGHTEST FREAKIN ROOM I have ever woken up in. Happy Birthday to me. Breakfast was delish at the ole Village Inn - I did well and had 2 eggs over easy, 2 pieces of bacon some wheat toast and OJ..... & then I was off to treat myself to a massage. OMG I so needed that. I really should schedule those more often. Fast forward to that afternoon spent swimming with my friend and his son and then watching the Husker game.
Birthday dinner Saturday night with Sheri, Kelly & Traci was fun. Tapas and Sangria!!!! Paella is so tasty I need to figure out how to make this myself. ( i think i put myself into a carb coma because i could not drink anymore that night & found myself with a raging headache ) (( can you get a headache from eating carbs when you haven't been eating them - something to research i think ))
Sunday was spent trying to find a swimming pool for me to get some sun and cool off. I ended up going out to the water park at the lake by myself and enjoyed a little downtime. Labor Day party at Alex & Keri's was fun - good to see everyone and hang. I am reminded at these functions how far I have come and how good I am doing. The thing about the midwest is that you are not surrounded by a lot of healthy options or beautiful mountains to hike or trails to run. It would be easy for me to fall back into the bad eating habits and laziness that comes with hot humid summers and bitter freezing winters. Everyone I see - not just people I know - but random people at places we go are overweight and unhealthy looking. The only thing people seem to do for entertainment are go to the bar and drink. I just can't do that anymore. Yes I live in one of the fittest cities in America per Forbes article. So it does help with motivation to see everyone around you active, fit and healthy.
I did breakdown Saturday afternoon and Sunday afternoon and had Runza - It was soooo good.
Flew home Monday afternoon after having lunch with Theresa and her son for her 40th birthday. And met the family for my belated birthday dinner at Benihana . AWESOME!
TUESDAY MORNING WEIGH IN.....
I was not looking forward to this at all. The scale Friday morning read 170 & the scale that morning read 175.6 AAAAGGGGHHHH. How the hell can I put on over 5 pounds in less than 4 days?
I am so disappointed in myself and this is usually where I quit - I get frustrated with the setback and just say Fuck it and continue eating like crap..... Then next thing you know I am back to wearing a size 16 and miserable. Oh the joys of my weight cycle / depression cycle. Not this time I am telling myself, and you. I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO FUCK THIS UP! I am so close to goal that I can taste it yet it seems so far away from me. 15 pounds now turns into 20 pounds needed to hit goal. Insert me in the fetal position crying to myself in the corner. OK now that Im done with the pity party I can plan my goals for this week.
It is Thursday - I will eat on track from this point forward. I will do at least 30 minutes of exercise each day. I will plan a hike for this wknd with whomever will go with me or just go by myself. I will remind myself daily that I am the only one who can lose the weight for me, No one else can do it for me So I shouldn't rely on anyone else to get me out of the house and doing something. I need to go to the grocery store tonight also - I am so out of food it is not even funny.
Im hoping that with planning and that being aware of my moods and not letting them control my life that I can get back on track and drop some more weight.
Friday night after landing I got my car and drove over to Kelly's house to hang out with her and her daughter Tierney. After receiving some disappointing news about my plans for Saturday night we proceeded to get drunk on wine and smoke a few cigarettes. I haven't smoked in over 2 years. It was disgusting but i felt it was necessary given my state of funk. Saturday morning came waaaaaay to early due in part to a 4 year old resident and my friends bedroom has got to be the BRIGHTEST FREAKIN ROOM I have ever woken up in. Happy Birthday to me. Breakfast was delish at the ole Village Inn - I did well and had 2 eggs over easy, 2 pieces of bacon some wheat toast and OJ..... & then I was off to treat myself to a massage. OMG I so needed that. I really should schedule those more often. Fast forward to that afternoon spent swimming with my friend and his son and then watching the Husker game.
Birthday dinner Saturday night with Sheri, Kelly & Traci was fun. Tapas and Sangria!!!! Paella is so tasty I need to figure out how to make this myself. ( i think i put myself into a carb coma because i could not drink anymore that night & found myself with a raging headache ) (( can you get a headache from eating carbs when you haven't been eating them - something to research i think ))
Sunday was spent trying to find a swimming pool for me to get some sun and cool off. I ended up going out to the water park at the lake by myself and enjoyed a little downtime. Labor Day party at Alex & Keri's was fun - good to see everyone and hang. I am reminded at these functions how far I have come and how good I am doing. The thing about the midwest is that you are not surrounded by a lot of healthy options or beautiful mountains to hike or trails to run. It would be easy for me to fall back into the bad eating habits and laziness that comes with hot humid summers and bitter freezing winters. Everyone I see - not just people I know - but random people at places we go are overweight and unhealthy looking. The only thing people seem to do for entertainment are go to the bar and drink. I just can't do that anymore. Yes I live in one of the fittest cities in America per Forbes article. So it does help with motivation to see everyone around you active, fit and healthy.
I did breakdown Saturday afternoon and Sunday afternoon and had Runza - It was soooo good.
Flew home Monday afternoon after having lunch with Theresa and her son for her 40th birthday. And met the family for my belated birthday dinner at Benihana . AWESOME!
TUESDAY MORNING WEIGH IN.....
I was not looking forward to this at all. The scale Friday morning read 170 & the scale that morning read 175.6 AAAAGGGGHHHH. How the hell can I put on over 5 pounds in less than 4 days?
I am so disappointed in myself and this is usually where I quit - I get frustrated with the setback and just say Fuck it and continue eating like crap..... Then next thing you know I am back to wearing a size 16 and miserable. Oh the joys of my weight cycle / depression cycle. Not this time I am telling myself, and you. I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO FUCK THIS UP! I am so close to goal that I can taste it yet it seems so far away from me. 15 pounds now turns into 20 pounds needed to hit goal. Insert me in the fetal position crying to myself in the corner. OK now that Im done with the pity party I can plan my goals for this week.
It is Thursday - I will eat on track from this point forward. I will do at least 30 minutes of exercise each day. I will plan a hike for this wknd with whomever will go with me or just go by myself. I will remind myself daily that I am the only one who can lose the weight for me, No one else can do it for me So I shouldn't rely on anyone else to get me out of the house and doing something. I need to go to the grocery store tonight also - I am so out of food it is not even funny.
Im hoping that with planning and that being aware of my moods and not letting them control my life that I can get back on track and drop some more weight.
LMFAO
I was reading my friend Scott's blog about a recent race he finished and clicked on a link to From Fat to Finish Line and started reading some of the stories of the participants. I clicked on Lealah's blog and started reading. I really enjoy reading other people's blogs about weight loss, running, healthy eating, etc.... I am going to steal this video she posted because it seriously made me laugh my ass off. It is so true and while I have absolutely NO desire to run a marathon I know people who do this for fun. So it really is funny to me.
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